Do your nervous ticks manifest in your skin? Are they like weeds that just grow and you pick and they scratch and you itch, only to hide with potted plants and waterproofed decks.

I guess it doesn't matter if your neurosis commands your hands and you spend your days on your knees, picking out weeds. In these time, I'm more intimate with the dirt than myself, exterminated by anxiety but searching for a root deeper than my fingers can reach.

I'll spend my time then, paralyzed here, with no mercy, as I get muddied by the blood of the earth on my hands.